Surprise, surprise

Well, we finally recieved our test results, and they were not at all what I thought they would be. Everything on me came back normal, but my husband is a carrier of a type of chromosomal abnormality called a Balanced Translocation. Basically, one of his chromosomes is broken off and reattached to another one. Since all the genetic material is there, he is completely normal and healthy, and it poses no health risk to him. But, what it does affect is his reproductive cells. So in a pregnancy, we have a 50% chance of miscarrying, a 25% chance that the baby will be normal, and a 25% chance that the baby will be normal but carry the same balanced translocation. We have an appointment with a Genetic Counselor on March 5, and we will have more information then.
It is a little strange though because finally have these results has been a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. Even though it is not something I would choose(obviously), at least now I know what has caused our miscarriages, and it is nothing I could control! There is absolutely nothing that I could have done to prevent them. So I can stop blaming myself and feeling guilty. It just all depends on which sperm fertlizes the egg. But the big issue right now? I am already pregnant. Surprise!! I found I was pregnant on Valentine's Day. It was a huge shock for all of us, since we were not trying. So now that makes all this a little more complicated. If I had had these results in December, I would never allowed myself to get pregnant, so maybe this is a blessing in disguise. Going into a pregnancy, a 50% chance of having a baby, is not good statistics. But already being pregnant, I am clinging on to that 50%. I have my first ultrasound on March 16, and I am praying for a nice strong heartbeat.
I did do a little bit of research, and we can have a healthy pregnancy(we have had one), but we are just at a much higher risk for miscarriages than the average couple. I did read on one website, that at some point the odds are in favor of a healthy pregnancy, and since we had two miscarriages this past year, I am hoping this is our time. So far, I am having good symptoms, so I am feeling very hopeful. I will be 6 weeks tomorrow, and so far there has been no spotting, I starting to have morning sickness, and major breast enlargment and tenderness(sorry, that is probably TMI). So that is a very good sign! The only thing I can do right now is pray, pray, and pray some more.

Update

So, we're all moved in and everything, but still have no internet hooked up! I am having some serious internet withdrawals, but I'm getting so much stuff done! I am over at my brother's using his computer to get my fix, so I thought I would update. But, the move went well, and Emma has never been happier! She is loving her new pink room, and also the fact that she can play in it all day long! Our previous house was a two story and I never did install a safety gate at the top of the stairs so she was never allowed to play in her room unless me or Josh was in there with her. She is definitely loving her new found freedom! So far so good. Josh has knocked off about twenty minutes off his commute and is really enjoying his new job site. He will be much happier when we move over there, but for now he is content.
We are finally going to get our testing done tomorrow! I am so relieved, but also a little nervous. According to certain statistics, if all of our blood work comes back normal then we only have a 60% to 70% chance of having successful pregnancy. If something is found that can be treated, then we are no more likely to miscarry than someone who has no previous miscarriages(or only one, since they are the same). So, I guess I am kind of hoping that something will come back as abnormal, but hope it is something that is easily treated(such as a blood clotting disorder). We will just have to wait and see! After my doctor gets all of our test results back then I can talk to him about what I can do to help my chances of carrying my next pregnancy to term. Please keep us in your prayers! ......and here's to hoping third time is the charm!