12 weeks!!

Introducing....Butterbean! I can not believe that I am almost finished with my first trimester already. Finally! I had my NT scan yesterday, and I must say that I was so incredibly nervous that something had happened to the baby between now and my last ultrasound four weeks ago. Even though my morning sickness is in full swing still, and my belly is starting to swell, I was still so terrified that I would receive not so great news during this ultrasound. But lo and behold, I got to see the most beautiful sight of my sweet little baby jumping and squirming all around! It truly is a miracle. I just feel so incredibly blessed that I don't even know what to do with myself. His(or her) heart rate was 180 BPM!! Which I actually thought was a little high, but the tech assured me that it is perfectly normal at this stage as it peaks about this time after it first started beating and then within the next few weeks will slow down a bit to around 120-160. But, we are definitely going to have our work cut out for us if this baby in utero is any indiction of what he will be like once he is born!
Now I just have to wait 8 more weeks to find out if it's going to be a boy or girl! Which actually is getting a little hard to be patient since I'm starting to get anxious to start shopping! At least I can start stocking up on diapers and wipes, and stuff like that....and I am in desperate need of maternity clothes! I am planning on buying at least one package of diapers everytime I go to the store, that way by the time the baby comes, in around 6 months or so, we won't have to buy any diapers for a while. Or at least for a few weeks....lol. I just feel like I have so much to do, and no energy to do it. I still am so tired all the time, and between me being sick last week, and Emma also, it has drained me even more. I am hoping that with my second trimester right around the corner(just 4 days away!), I will start feeling better. Or at least I'm supposed to, right? I stop taking my progesterone supplements soon, so I'm hoping that will help too.
We also are stuck on boy names. We already have a name picked out for a girl(for the most part. If it actually is a girl, we might end up changing our minds). But, since I am convinced it's a boy, I am starting to stress a little bit that Josh and I can not decide on a boy name at all! He hates all the names I like, and I'm not too fond of the ones he likes either. I am so jealous because my brother and future sister in law already have their names picked out...and she is 3 weeks behind me. I guess we have plenty of time, and once we know for sure what the gender of the baby is we can really get down to business.
So, everything is going absolutely great, and I am hoping that I can finally start to relax a bit and enjoy the remainder of my very last pregnancy. Of course, that is easier said that done, and anyone who has ever lost a baby understands this. I will never be totally at ease until this sweet little bundle of joy is in my arms. I am just so very thankful for this little miracle, and pray every day that God will continue to watch over him or her.