Tomorrow...

Tomorrow is March 10, and it's been two years since that fateful day in my OB's office when I found out I had lost our baby. I'm having a whirlwind of different emotions since it's also the first time going through this anniversary since having my Rainbow baby, Kellen. Last year I was just a few months pregnant with him, so I couldn't feel sadness. I refused to, just in case. But now that he's here, and he's happy and healthy, I am able to feel what I need to feel.
I know he was the baby I was meant to have, without a doubt. But it doesn't make losing the other pregnancies any easier. Kellen completes me, so to speak, and has completed our family. I feel so unbelievably blessed that he chose me as his mother. He is such an angel, and so happy, most of the time. I will also remember my angel babies fondly, and the dates that I lost them will forever be engraved in my mind. 4-1-05, 3-10-08, and 7-27-08. I know that they are waiting for me in heaven, and I will be with them someday. Just think of how amazing that day will be! Mommy loves you, and can't wait to spend eternity with you.