So Bummed...

So, yesterday we went and did some major shopping and I had my list of everything that I wanted and needed to get. But I am so bummed because they didn't have the exersaucer/jumperoo thingy I've been wanting to get Kellen for just about forever! It is the same one I've been wanting for almost two years, but I was waiting to get it until Kellen could actually use it. It was just at Babies R Us a few weeks or so ago, and yesterday when we went they didn't have it! They didn't even have any I liked. I am so bummed! I also wanted to get Kellen some really cute binkys, and they were out of those too. Needless to say I am very upset that I didn't just buy these things a few months ago. I had no idea I wouldn't be able to get them.
I was hoping that an exersaucer could be my answer to getting Kellen content to play on his own for a little bit. Although he did make some progress yesterday. I put him in his bouncy seat so I could take a shower and he was totally content the entire time! I then tested my luck and pumped before I put him to bed, and he ended up falling asleep next to me. That is some major progress. I have spoiled this kid to end with him sleeping with me, so that was kind of a big deal to me. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE having him sleep with me, I just want to be able to put him down when I need to.
But back to the shopping trip, all in all it was pretty successful. Although I didn't find any clothes for me that I liked, I did get some much needed new makeup. It is so hard for me not to go crazy at the MAC makeup counter, but with Josh and the kids with me, it forced me to stick to my list. I just tend to get hypnotized by all the pretty eyeshadows. I want to get them all, but I try to stick to the colors I know I'll actually use, with a few different ones in the mix for when I want to change it up a bit. I did get a blush(a shimmery peachy color, so pretty!), powder, eyeliner, lipgloss, and mascara also, and ended up getting three new eyeshadows. I also bought myself a new makeup case(mine was getting too small) and some new hot rollers. I can't wait to use my new hot rollers today! I was a little bummed though that I didn't find any new clothes I liked, but it's also hard for me
to shell out money for clothes when I'm trying to lose weight. So, I guess I'll just save it for when I do get to my goal weight and need a whole new wardrobe(it WILL happen!).
So far the weight loss has been pretty slow. I do feel a little firmer, but my weight is only down a few pounds. Although I can now wear jeans that I couldn't even button a month ago, so that's promising. I just wish it came off easier! I'm going to try to kick up my diet a little bit more and see if that helps. My metabolism is pretty dead, so I'm trying to eat more often to speed it up. I'd like to lose at least 30lbs by the time we go to Vegas in June. I don't think it's going to happen, but I'm sure going to try! But, I do want to be at my goal weight by Kellen's first birthday, so that gives me 7 months to lose 40lbs! I think I can do that. I just wish it was as easy to lose it as it was to gain it! But I guess that's why so many people are now overweight. I just keep trying to tell myself that the I slower I lose it, the more likely it is I'll be able to keep it off. Slow and
steady wins the race.....right?! I sure hope so!